And the stars shine for you...

YAY!

Jafe is out.
All that I will say for now.
Other than that I couldn’t be happier!

I hate my boyfriend..

The title says it all. And yea this is about you John.
Lie of the day: My boyfriend is so awesome.

Oh dear…

At this point, I am sitting at a table sipping my tim hortons coffee and watching my new family play bingo.

I hate bingo. Always have and always will.

Jafe is in Jail.
It’s really upsetting.
He was practically my best friend in Barrie and now he’s gone because of a flaw in the system. I wish I could go and visit him or do something about it. I just really wish he was here. It’s kind of lonely not having someone to let off steam with. He was one of the coolest people to be around. He always managed to make me feel  little better about things.

My friend Crystal called last night though. I now have plans for monday and I can’t wait. It’s turkey dinner on sunday here but I wish I could go to owen sound to see my friends for even just a moment and then go and visit Jafe. I miss him a lot. Phil and Crystal are cool though. Maybe I will find another place in barrie where I can just relax and be able to spend time with people where we can just play music together and not have a care in the world.
My family is so uptight. Jafe was even better though. We could just walk along the water and everything was okay. I really didn’t have a care in the world.

Life is beautiful with Jafe and now he is gone from me.
So is John. And everybody who made me feel just a little better…

Insomniatic Rant….

In my past week I have come to live a life where everything in some way, has a boundary. I had a bed time, I haven’t had one of those in ages, although after days of protesting the bed time rule was abolished. Although if anyone is sleeping, I have to isolate myself in my room as not to disturb them at 9:00 pm. I am not aloud to eat anything that is gluten free in the house because it was not bought for me. I am not aloud to sit infront of the t.v. because it somehow is not productive. I can only be so productive. I am only aloud out on week days if I have earned it and I MUST be home for dinner. I am not allowed to go out and drink because I can’t come home drunk, not that that’s a problem seeing as I seldomly drink. Even with all of this nonsense, I am still so happy to be here. I haven’t had a good nights sleep in days and my bak is hurting me something fierce. This place even has a no busking law and if I want to busk, I have to go to the city hall and PAY for it as well as there are 14 designated spots in this town where buskers are actually allowed to play and they all suck massive donkey dick. I have seen many beautiful people here though. I just can’t really approach them. Everyone here has such a negative attitude and old women clutch their handbag if you even so much as look and smile at them.

I am not allowed to go out at night alone because it’s a lot worse of a town than the previous shit hole that I used to live in. I hate to say it but… I really don’t give a fuck. I’ve lived in places much bigger than where I live now with much higher crime rates and many more hookers than there are on mary st. My new found step brother is such a weirdo and uses those white nose strips and has his own special soap that I am not allowed to use because it’s for acne prevention and it also happens to be the only soap in the place that isn’t a bar of soap which seriously freak me out since I found a pubic hair on one from my old boarding school.

One of the upsides to liveing here though is that Jafe lives here. He’s a close friend of the family and I love spending time with him. And my ex boyfriend lives like an hour away although  go bus to get to where he lives costs all of 14 dollars. I am happy about that. Very happy. I love that boy. My Current boyfriend lives in a complete different province and I miss him more and more each day.

My music is progressing though. Jafe and I have teamed up, and are writing some great originals. I miss things though.